well i have nothing to do but to update =]  it was a pretty good day. i woke up early, as usual [11] ? nd watched some tv, woke up mike around [1] ..chilled around da crib fo a lil bit nd then i got ready to go to anna's crib fo a lil get-together. i saw lisa nd anna..chilled wid dem nd anna's friends. me nd mike ddnt stay late..then some shit went down nd aftawards, went back to his crib, got ready to go to a family party to meet up wid my parents n other family friends..saw kat there..we chilled, nd then me n mike started to watch phone-booth at ateh's room since she was at work..nd while into da movie, we hadda bounce..so mike, kuya james, kevin, nd i rode in mikes ride while my parents were in theres. on da way home we were right behind narks n dis car they were "investigating" so then..they pulled them over, nd i guess i found it amusing..heh ..ok =]  ok so we got to my crib waaayyy earlier than my parents, nd since i ddnt have da keys to da crib, we parked up front n chilled in da front of my crib. nd then at my krib some crazyyy ass shit went down..wheww..wat a night man..! it was great =] 

 

+//after-thoughts...-ive learned a lot about myself during this winter break, nd i guess theres a lot of things i need to change. most especially my bad attitude. if you kno me, then you kno my attitude, and i got a bad one. =]  well i shouldnt be happy about it bcoz it is the reason why me n hubbz argue. nd im really gettn sick n tired of da way i act or talk to him at times bcoz he doesnt deserve it. hes a great guy, nd when i want to be, im such a great person. but there are times where i let my anger and emotion get inbetween things nd the end result isnt all too good. nd after shit goes down..in da late hours of the nite, dats where i start to think and where i try to figure out wat else i can do to make things better. but then again, ive tried once and once again, but it really is hard, when i get no help from anyone, bcoz no one knows or understands. why? because i hide the problem nd im good at hiding it, but not in front of mike. bcoz hes proven to me dat he understands, cares, nd is willing to do anything to lend a hand. but in front of all of you, i cant show it, its hard nd i dont want any1 else to get involved, bcoz you guys dont care. nd ive only found a handful dat does. nd actually, i think it is only mike..lol .. i dont care though bcoz he's all i need. anywayz..i need to prove something to myself, dat i can change nd do wat i need to wid myself. i need to stop being selfish and spoiled n think about da people around me, who i actually care about. nd theres not many of you, so dont get happy. =]  i guess its jez who i am, i dont trust anyone, nd fo da ones close to me, im still struggling to. let it be, i need to learn, the hard way or the easy way, im gonna learn..learn to trust, and to change for myself, not you guys. if u dont like da way i am, so be it. ya'll aint shit to me anyways. nd if you are, you kno it ;]  anyways, ive written enough i guess..coz if i dont stop now, im gonna keep writing nd writing, nd writing. so leave me comments if u wish, if not then bounce..til next time..holla at me =]